Delirium
Posted: November 5, 2008 at 12:59 pm | Tags: delirium, exhaustionFrom Nov 5, 2008
I go through my day in a fog. Each time (every semester) I do this exhaustion trick, it gets worse. I remember when it was just an initial shock as to WHY the hell am I so tired? And now, now it’s like I don’t care why I’m tired, I *know* why… now it’s more of a let’s see how far I can push it before I break…
My brain hurts. In general. I don’t have time for my homework. Or to paint my toenails.
I know. I know.
My eyes hurt. Something’s gotta give. But what?
The fog blows into my ear but won’t leave. I can’t focus on reading. I don’t have the motivation to log into my online class to discuss. I’m not depressed, I’m tired.
The skin beneath my eyes is dripping a steady rip rip rip away from my cheeks. My face looks sunken in to me. I’m having hallucinations.
Someone grabbed my shoulder today. It surprised me, and I turned to find no one.
