It has become apparent that I am going through a major transition.  I am beginning to question everything I have known to be true.  Writing these words does not scare me like it might’ve many years ago.  In fact, isn’t that what this blog has been about all along?  Getting to know myself better… learning to understand me, learning to follow my heart towards the things that make me truly happy?

I believe I’ve moved beyond my initial state of shock from realizing that everything I was working towards was actually not what I desired any longer.  Since then, I have experienced an enormous amount of growth and learning.  Which is good, because had I stopped learning altogether, it likely would’ve been a flag waving furiously at me, “You’re not headed in the right direction!!!”

Quite the opposite, really.  I’ve given myself permission to delve into the spirituality and philosophy of life. I have been delving into the realm of spiritual healing, learning about esoteric arts and crafts, and poring over study guides that have taught me various pieces of the entire universal puzzle I’m currently putting together.  I’ve been listening to audio books by Wayne Dyer and Deepak Chopra.  I’ve been thinking about Traditional Chinese Medicine and massage, even.  I’m considering everything with an open mind.  If something doesn’t draw me closer, I consider it and move beyond it.

I believe that now my new goal is to be able to work from home.  Support myself from home.  The first thing that comes to mind is my ability to write.  Of course it sounds risky.  At the same time, it sounds blissful.  I’m coming across new opportunities, and new ideas– stuff that I never previously even thought about putting my time into.  With the assistance of my lovely man, I have a few new sites up… though none of them are even close to having actual content.  I will share them with you as soon as I can.

In one of those sites, I’m think of putting up an advice column.  Something to the likes of “Dear Abby” or something of that nature.  Along with that, I have a few ideas of books brewing in my head.  Just need to get all the details knocked out, and let it simmer for a while.

There really is no reason why I can’t sell books.  I mean, I’m guessing that those of you who read my blog regularly would certainly encourage such a thing?  I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve had a comment that says, “So, when are you going to write a book?”

To answer that question: soon.  Very soon.  Hopefully sooner than later.  I’m quite certain it’ll happen in a blink of an eye.  However, the priorities, until I am ready, are still: work, school, family.  I realize that these are backwards.  I see the error, and I’m positioning myself so that I can change them.  It’s not going to happen over night, but I can assure you it’ll happen soon.  Maybe I’m just assuring myself.